Bucket List

A bucket list may seem cliche to you, but when I was diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer in January of 2013, I was told I had 18-24 months to live. I was only 28 with three small children. There were and are still so many things I wanted to accomplish with my children, husband and family.  All I ever wanted to do was be a mom. I had already gave birth to and buried a child, along with hopes and dreams for her, and then miscarried my second child- I never thought I would ever be a mother. I fought hard to be a mom and endured not only loss, but also a hard birth and NICU stay with the twins. Followed by an emergent birth that ended my child bearing days and also numerous medical issues with my son. When I finally had it all, death came breathing down my neck and my very existence was threatened. My kids were still babies when I was diagnosed, so I compiled a list of not only things I did as a child that I wanted to do with my children, but things I wished of doing, and experiences I had hoped to see achieved. The list morphed into a list of dreams. And my mommy bucket list grows the longer I am alive- I am able to have new dreams that I thought I would never see. Dreams that make me happy. Happy to be a daughter, sister, friends, wife and mother. And right now, being happy is pretty awesome.

1. Buy the kids a swing set

2. Take kids to Circus

3. Go to a Christian Concert

4. Teach kids to fly a kite

5. Meet Bubba from 100.7

6. Take kids to the Carnegie Science Center

7. Take kids to the Aviary

8. Take kids to the movies

9. Take kids to the Drive In

10. Have a backyard camp night in a tent

11. Take kids to see Seseame Street live

12. Take kids on the Gateway Clipper

13. Visit LA & catch an Ellen Taping

14. Take kids to see Disney On Ice

15. Teach kids to read

16. Take kids to all Disney parks

17. Get kids a Bulldog

18. Take the kids on a Ducky Tour of the Three Rivers

19. See a Broadway Musical in NYC

20. Take kids to a musical

21. Meet NKOTB (fan girl status=creepy)

22. Take kids to ride a horse

23. Take the whole family to Salem in October

24. Visit Boston & catch a Red Sox Game

25. Watch kids take piano lessons

26. Buy kids a piano

27. Have Lemonade Stands with the kids

28. Teach kids to ride a bike with no training wheels 

29. Have a Halloween Costume Party

30. Be an actor in a super cool Haunted House

31. Take kids to indoor swim park

32. Go to the Georgia Aquarium

33. Teach kids to swim under water

34. Go on a family Cruise

35. Take the whole family to see a real Indian Powwow

36. Take kids camping across the country

37. Go to Australia

38. Meet/See Jimmy Fallon

39. Catch a Justin Timberlake Concert

40. Be in the audience of a live recorded TV Show

41. Buy our dream home

42. Watch the sun rise with my husband

43. Visit NYC and Ground Zero

44. Visit the Statue of Liberty

45. Take the kids to a New York Fire Station

46. Meet a New York Police Officer . . . in New York

47. Take kids to Niagara Falls

48. Take kids to Sea World

49. Take the whole family to Washington, DC

50. Take the kids to every Smithsonian Museum in DC

51. See a dolphin in its natural habitat

52. Take kids to see Winter the dolphin

53. Swim with a dolphin

54. Take the kids to Brentwood’s 4th of July Parade

55. Take the kids to the Grand Canyon

56. Take kids to a Pirate’s baseball game

57. Buy a boat

58. Renew vows in Hawaii

59. Take Mom to Ireland

60. Take Mom and Dad to see a Steeler game

61. Take the kids crabbin’

62. See the kids get an “A” on a paper/report card

63. Take kids skiing

64. Take the kids snow tubing

65. See them accept Christ in their lives

66. Watch kids be baptized (2 out of 3!)

67. Watch kids play sports

68. Watch kids perform in a play, band or chorus (2 out of 3!)

69. Help kids through their first heartbreak

70. Take the girls for a spa day

71. Watch kids go to prom

72. Watch kids graduate (pre-school works for now!)

73. Send kids off to college

74. Watch kids get married

75. Watch kids have babies

76. Write a book

77. Go to Universal Studios

78. Help the kids with a report

79. Watch the kids complete a service project

80. Meet Lysa TerKeurst

81. Buy a pig

82. Buy a goat

83. Complete my first house project

84. Have a girls weekend with my sisters/besties

85. Watch my Godson & nephews go to Kindergarten (1 left!)

86. Take the kids to play lasertag

87. Have my son take me on a date

87. Help teach my niece and nephew to drive

89. Have birthday party sleepover for the kids

90. Watch my nieces and nephews graduate (2 down!)

91. Watch the girls play on a high school sport team

92. Watch the kids go to a school dance

93. Get a service dog to help me

94. Visit the Redwood National Park (Avenue of the Giants)

95. Go canoeing or kayaking on the river with the kids

96. Make the world laugh and smile

97. Live to see cancer cured


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“I will not die an unlived life
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
more accessible,
to loosen my heart
until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise. 
I choose to risk my significance;
to live so that which came to me as seed
goes to the next as blossom
and that which came to me as blossom,
goes on as fruit.”

-Dawna Markova